I know, the wise answer is: happiness should not depend on where one lives. Physical location should not matter. Happiness is inside. Moving is just running from oneself… But although I understand that, I do not feel it. Right now I want to run and experience different places, do different things, meet different people. I’ve been moving with my parent’s all my life, never staying on one place for more than 5 years. I guess I’m a kind of a modern nomad. I cannot be on the same place, doing same things for a long time, it bores me and I become restless. It’s been almost 9 years since the last major move, and I know it’s time. I’ve been moving inside the city every 1-2 years, but right now, I know I need a major change, maybe even a different country. Settling down makes me nervous. I’m afraid to get to involved and loose my freedom, and my freedom is sacred. I don’t know if it’s wrong but that is how I feel. I feel boxed in right now. Maybe someday I’ll understand, but right now I need prove myself that the happiness is not somewhere out there.

Anyway, I currently reside in Edmonton, Alberta, Canada and it’s 100% not where I want to be even if I felt happy inside. It’s cold. There is almost no summer. Sure, the nature is still beautiful. River valley here is beautiful, I love it. I’m very thankful to this city, it gave me A LOT. But I’d like to be someplace warmer right now. I want to be able to bike or walk all year round. I hate cars and driving, it’s too stressful. It’s bad for the environment. Cars don’t fulfill their functions any more, they are ridiculous. I could go on and on about cars and driving, but not in this post. This makes me doubt if the whole North American life stile fits me… So far, I like Vancouver the best. It’s beautiful, it’s warmer, there are mountains and it’s on the ocean. People seem friendly and more relaxed than in Edmonton. Edmonton is more of a worker’s town. There’s not much going on culture-wise. Vancouver seems better. But. Maybe I should consider other countries? Europe? I’ve lived in Russia and that’s not where I want to be. But maybe something like Spain? Or Asia? How about India? I don’t know… I even thought about the Caribbean… First I need to find out what to do in term of my income…